arje

You know i just keep thinking that im the only one gonna be left in greensboro....all my friends are going to move on to colleges outside of greensboro, not only that but ones that are the best like carolina...hopefully iapos;ll get there one day, but idk how hard its gonna be....im trying my best...but will i be able to do it/? i hope so...iapos;ve come too far to give up now...

i wish that things could have been better i was at the grimsley high school game today and they played against page that game was awesome...
i wish i could have gone to grimsley...it would have been great
i wish that i could have gotten great grades and made it into carolina
i wish that i could have played a sport if i had been skinny enough or fit enough or been a cheerleader or something
am i just lame??

sometimes i feell like wen im with my friends that they dont care for wat i have to say...iapos;ll say something and it seems as tho they just completely ignore me...idk maybe its just me...they dont always do that but sometimes i just think that...idk

today when we were on holden road goin to the game...me and kruti and binal were talkin and binal was like divya look to ur left and i saw roshan staring at us...binal said that she saw him staring at us...so she was like who the heck is that.. We got freaked for a second...weapos;re like omg hope its not nipul...and then we were talkin to him...and heapos;s like where yapos;all going and i was like weapos;r goin to the game...he was mostly talkin to kruti b/c sheapos;s good friend with his gf minisha....thats great and all, but he barely even talks to me anymore...the other day at garba...i was like ok let me say hey to him b/c he usually says it to me so i was like iapos;ll say it to him...and i was like hey...and he barely even said hey to me...i smiled at him when playin dandiya and he smiled bakc..but ok u cant say a proper hey to an old friend....idc he can do what he wants i still have respect for him as a friend...but today he kinda did talk to me...mostly to kruti...so we were like u going to the game and he was like no im going home and we were trying to talk while driving, but then we had to go...so we get to the parking lot...and we see him there drinving around...so binal and kruti were like follow him...and we did but i was trying to look for a parking spot so i stopped and then later binal was like y did u stop following him...i wanted to find out where he was going..i was like i was looking for a parkin spot....ahh w/e who cares abt wat he was doin there...he can do wat he wants ...his life...w/e .....it was pretty funny tho...yea i thought it was pretty rude that he barely talks to me anymore, but i guess thats just life...not everything is gonna last forever...i rmr the good old days when we were friends and stuff...nothing can replace that i guess...lol

then kruti called minisha and told her that she was with me and wat happened...i told her that he was weird and she was like no heapos;s not...i was abt to say...a lot u would know...lol but w/e she prob. Knows him better now....no heapos;s a good person from what i know...

you know i make fun of ppl but its sarcastically i dont mean wat i say...i always think that everyone is a good person and i try to look for that good person within them...

sometimes i think wat am i being punished for...

you know what for the future i will always rmr that if i ever have any children then i will always give them everything that i never had the chance to do...i hope that bhagwan will give me the chance to live my dreams through them...i hope that they will not deceive me when they grow up.� i know its too early to think of that..b/c i dont even know if i will find the right guy for me...its so hard to say rght now....idk...idk if i will end up with the one person that i love....idk wat the future holds in store...its exciting to find out but im starting to grow impatient b/c with the way things are going now i have a feeling that somethings wont turn out the way i wanted them too....i guess i just have to suck it up and deal with it....
arje, arje salon, arjelis y su grupo nv, arjen.